Sometimes I push myself too hard

I've been under the weather since my best friend's wedding back in November. I thought I could kick whatever it was by self-medicating, but that didn't work. I tried Claritin, Tylenol Cold, Nyquil, Alka-Seltzer Cold, hot tea and honey . . . even Flintstone's vitamins! But I hit a wall this week. I went to work Monday with no voice and by Tuesday, I sounded like Barry White. :) I finally gave in and went to what I call a "doc in a box" (aka, Primacare) and was prescribed some real meds. Thank God for common sense kicking in!

I took a sick day on Wednesday but ended up working 12+ hours on my laptop. Tell me, how does a sick day turn into a work-from-home day?! I'm befuddled! Same on Thursday, but a little better: I only worked 3 hours. The cRaZy thing is that I felt so guilty not going into the office today and not putting in more work yesterday. Why is that? I do realize that if I don't take care of myself that I can't take care of my son or contribute at work. So I honestly have to MAKE myself slow down and take some time for me.

The great thing is that I have wondeful family and friends around me who look after me even when I don't look after myself. 3:3 friends counseled me to not push myself further and to allow my body to truly rest today. Honestly, listening to their concern made my decision to stay at home so much easier.

But that led me to think about why we as women, moms, single parents, first borns, over-achievers, etc., push ourselves so much and can't see when it's hurting us to our core. What is it about us that produces that blind aspiration? Does anyone else ever feel the guilt of not being all things to all people all the time? Please chime in and let me know I'm not alone.